so me when I was a kid :) still me today!

I am realizing that I have Asperger’s. I am really scared and sad but incredibly relieved at the same time. The entire span of my life thus far has become clearer. I have still cried many times today recognizing that Asperger’s is why my mom thinks I don’t love her and gets annoyed so easily when we speak. Asperger’s is why I became painfully and selectively mute when I was in high school. Asperger’s is why I have trusted those who were to be mistrusted and ended up sexually abused at their hands. 

I thought that everything would make sense once the understanding came…but it makes too much sense. Before I just felt different, thought I was different. Now I know I am different.